creatures of habit

every tuesday and thursday morning i slap my alarm clock to make it shut up around 6:30 am. If you know me at all, you know that me and 6:30 don't get along!! but i pull my lazy bum out of bed, begrudgingly dress and make a b-line for starbucks. Kyle, my starbucks/facebook/cleveland friend has a knack for making me feel better about life in general. Plus, that's where they serve the coffee :) 

So with my full warmed mug i head to class which starts in five minutes at 7:45 but don't get me started on that... why do they have to have class at 7:45 in the morning? Moving on...

So it's now a full month into class so we have been in this particular class roughly 8 or 9 times. If you remember from you college, high school or even middle school days you must choose your seat wisely on the first day. Why? Because we are creatures of habit. The seat you choose on the first day will probably be where you sit for the remainder of the semester and believe it or not speaks volumes about the kind of student you are. 

I assessed the room and on the first day, chose a seat in the middle row all the way against the wall because that's where the power outlet is for my computer. 

So what am i supposed to do this morning when i arrive at class at assume my seat. Only to have the little blonde thing next to me, turn and say "Um, i like, have a friend sitting here... can you sit somewhere else?"

I wanted immediately to flip my hair, bat my eyelashes and state "NO." Unfortunately for me, my coffee had yet to have an affect so instead i just stared at her like she was an idiot then said, "sure i'll be happy to move from the only seat i have sat in this semester." 

So here i sit in the back of the classroom, not paying attention because i'm writing this stupid blog about a stupid offense that shouldn't even be bothering me. And yet it does. 

and for the record, her friend never arrived. 

what do you want

This is the question someone asked me recently when discussing my ever-nearing graduation date. They continued..."how can you know where to go and what to do if you don't know what you want?" 

So here is my list of things i want in my life

1. I want a best friend and soul-mate (and yes i'm quite impatient about it)

2. I want to live to see my great-grandchildren

3. I want my children to know my father, even though they will never be able to meet him

4. I want to have a career i  can be proud of and satisfied by, not just a paycheck

5. I want to see some of the world. I'm so greedy that i have to see all of the world, just some. 

6. I want a guy that knows my coffee and ice-cream (which isn't that hard, Strong black coffee with a little stevia and coffee flavored ice cream) and brings them to me spontaneously just because he knows i like it

7. I want to sing on stages around the world

8. I want children that are social and strong

9. I want to make my nana proud

10. I want to inspire

11. I want to be inspired 

12. I want to be as happy (or joyful if you will) as a I was at 11 or 12

13. I want to be seen for who i am, not as a pageant girl or a pastors kid or any of the other stereotypes that plague me

14. I want a love that is worthy of a best-seller

15. i want permanent friends

16. i want mango as often as possible

17. i want to be as strong and simultaneously as soft as my mother

18. I want to love him totally and completely with no thoughts of where and what i've been through

19. I want to honor my family

20. I want to someday enjoy the learning process