what do you want

This is the question someone asked me recently when discussing my ever-nearing graduation date. They continued..."how can you know where to go and what to do if you don't know what you want?" 

So here is my list of things i want in my life

1. I want a best friend and soul-mate (and yes i'm quite impatient about it)

2. I want to live to see my great-grandchildren

3. I want my children to know my father, even though they will never be able to meet him

4. I want to have a career i  can be proud of and satisfied by, not just a paycheck

5. I want to see some of the world. I'm so greedy that i have to see all of the world, just some. 

6. I want a guy that knows my coffee and ice-cream (which isn't that hard, Strong black coffee with a little stevia and coffee flavored ice cream) and brings them to me spontaneously just because he knows i like it

7. I want to sing on stages around the world

8. I want children that are social and strong

9. I want to make my nana proud

10. I want to inspire

11. I want to be inspired 

12. I want to be as happy (or joyful if you will) as a I was at 11 or 12

13. I want to be seen for who i am, not as a pageant girl or a pastors kid or any of the other stereotypes that plague me

14. I want a love that is worthy of a best-seller

15. i want permanent friends

16. i want mango as often as possible

17. i want to be as strong and simultaneously as soft as my mother

18. I want to love him totally and completely with no thoughts of where and what i've been through

19. I want to honor my family

20. I want to someday enjoy the learning process