Here's a short recap to catch you up before i get to the meat of this post....
July - left my "day job" which turned out to be a total sham! Thanks for that!
August - Went to Chicago with Jenn, left me painfully short on cash but quite frankly worth every second! Can't wait to go back!!!
September - broke up with the guy i had been dating for a few months. Learned a few lessons, a. don't date someone so much younger than you; b. dating someone 2 hours away is pretty hard
October - starting dating a new guy. He was wonderful! i knew almost instantly that this could really be something special.
November - he came back in town on thanksgiving (so i didn't go to my family reunion... sadness) which became our first "official" date.
December - CANCUUUUUUUUN! We might as well have been filming a short documentary for MTV on why you should never take a trip with 6 women! Oh well, I'd go back. (just with different circumstances!) Also that boy came in town for christmas, with the intention of us driving to MN to meet his family. Blizzard hit. No MN. So we re-packed and went to florida to be with my family. (No sense in not bein with family right?) GREAT! meet the family, it's casual, everything is going swimmingly.
January - relationship is over. Lessons learned... a. everyone has baggage, question is how much are you willing to help carry? b. dating someone 12 hours away is even harder! c. i realized how unhappy i had been over the last few years and how much i missed being the happy-go-lucky amy!
And finally, which is the real point of this post... I also received an email from my Tally Ex. haven't talked to him in the two years since we broke up. Thought I was gonna marry him. Problem is he didn't think the same thing. (sadness again) Apparently my blog is too depressing. I didn't think that was the case but what do I know? My attempt was a sounding board for thought provoking posts. I realize that sometimes inspiration to write comes from a place of anger or sadness and so yes, I have posted in that sort of tone before.
Please allow me to take a moment to now clarify. Yes, the last 3 or 4 years of my life have been painful due to unspeakable suffering and loss, growing pains, separation, anxiety, stress (both good and bad) and trial and error and of course, learning experiences. But i'm here to tell you that for the last 3 months, I've been happy. I'm finding joy in life again (maybe not so much MINE specifically but life in general). I'm talking with God again and we are ok. I'm working through all that baggage that i've carried around for so long. And anyone who knows me, has recognized it and applauded it.
I've also learned this month to stop surrounding myself with negativity. Ya, it may seem like a simple lesson but not always. Stress and unhappiness can come from such unlikely places, sometimes the very thing that you claim to make you happy.
So, now that you have stopped reading and are thoroughly bored, i will say adieu.
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